Before I begin I would like to say a few things to the members of this forum...... Please forgive me for not being involved in more conversations by keyboard....... I feel that at least 3% of the members are coherent enough to have a level headed discussion..... You know I am just joking as it more like 98%..... I consider you people my friends because of our common interest RTR!!!!!!
The wit of most members as you brought many smiles in me, then the knowlege of those are unsurpassed....... I also want to add that this post is not meant for a pity party for me..... It is a celebration of a life for me, and the burden that I carried is no longer with me, and I am excited about that, so, I want to tell the world.....
This morning, I decided to forego any more chemotherapy...... First it wasn`t helping, second it is well, let me say it was awful...... I went from maybe 7 months survival to week to week.... The way I looked at it is why should I go through 7 months of sickness when I could forego the agony, take a little morphine and live in somewhat comfort for a few days.....Of all the bad decisions I have made in my 60 years, I finally got one right...... My only regret is that I will leave grief and sorrow behind to the mortal souls that I care about, that makes me cry..... It also gives me great pleasure that those loved ones will heal and have a mortal life for more years, which makes me smile...... I am packed and ready to take the greatest journey in my life here on Earth..... I think I told Savannah in a PM that I would love to come back and tell the whole world about the most beautiful thing I am going to see, perhaps I will be allowed to..... Depending on your own Faith, someone has already done that a little over 2 thousand, twelve years ago...... At the very least, I will get to hold someone`s hand and show him around when that day comes to see the beauty I will have already been blessed to seeing......
To the poster who made a post about converting to Judaism....... You seemed to be troubled in making that decision, or you are a very good Troll..... That is unfortunate..... You should never be troubled with any Faith you want to choose from...... What is in your heart brother, and you are my brother????? You are the only one who knows what is in that heart of yours..... Not any of mortal men, or women, don`t want to exclude them, has the same in their heart as anyone else has..... I am not preaching to you as whatever Book, Text, Myths, or Folklore you have picked up and read, has already told you what is in your heart..... That is where you search, not on an internet forum..... Nothing wrong with discussing Faith, you are still going to reach out in you`re own heart for the answers you seek...... If it is the truth you seek, seek your own truth.... That will never steer you wrong..... Searching is believing as long as that belief is of a Designer of Life, and Death, something held most high.....
I invite everyone to listen to the seminar I have linked, especially you if you are sincere in your search.... Got to listen to all of it, don`t just listen to just parts..... It does not necessarily reflect my view on Faith, because my Faith is mine, and none will ever understand what is in my heart as I can`t their`s.....
Anyway, I just wanted to say goodbye, as I do not know how much longer I will be able to type........
Had not been on this site very long I guess, but enjoyed it immensely, thanks to y`all...... I really do not deserve to ask for a favor, but I am going to ask you all to do me one, just once!!!!!!
BE GOOD TO EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IN YOUR MORTAL EXISTENTS..... I have no doubt that I will see you in the future..... I may not know you, but will see you and we will see the same thing together, BEAUTY!!!!!! Beyond what you could ever dream of..... Cheers, and to all those Hispanics out there, Salute!!!!!
Out of here good people, goin` home!!!!!
My God, I`m sorry!!!!!! ROLL TIDE ROLL!!!!!!!
http://www.creatorsblessing.org/1v/50-Pandit-Come_Search_With_Me/
The wit of most members as you brought many smiles in me, then the knowlege of those are unsurpassed....... I also want to add that this post is not meant for a pity party for me..... It is a celebration of a life for me, and the burden that I carried is no longer with me, and I am excited about that, so, I want to tell the world.....
This morning, I decided to forego any more chemotherapy...... First it wasn`t helping, second it is well, let me say it was awful...... I went from maybe 7 months survival to week to week.... The way I looked at it is why should I go through 7 months of sickness when I could forego the agony, take a little morphine and live in somewhat comfort for a few days.....Of all the bad decisions I have made in my 60 years, I finally got one right...... My only regret is that I will leave grief and sorrow behind to the mortal souls that I care about, that makes me cry..... It also gives me great pleasure that those loved ones will heal and have a mortal life for more years, which makes me smile...... I am packed and ready to take the greatest journey in my life here on Earth..... I think I told Savannah in a PM that I would love to come back and tell the whole world about the most beautiful thing I am going to see, perhaps I will be allowed to..... Depending on your own Faith, someone has already done that a little over 2 thousand, twelve years ago...... At the very least, I will get to hold someone`s hand and show him around when that day comes to see the beauty I will have already been blessed to seeing......
To the poster who made a post about converting to Judaism....... You seemed to be troubled in making that decision, or you are a very good Troll..... That is unfortunate..... You should never be troubled with any Faith you want to choose from...... What is in your heart brother, and you are my brother????? You are the only one who knows what is in that heart of yours..... Not any of mortal men, or women, don`t want to exclude them, has the same in their heart as anyone else has..... I am not preaching to you as whatever Book, Text, Myths, or Folklore you have picked up and read, has already told you what is in your heart..... That is where you search, not on an internet forum..... Nothing wrong with discussing Faith, you are still going to reach out in you`re own heart for the answers you seek...... If it is the truth you seek, seek your own truth.... That will never steer you wrong..... Searching is believing as long as that belief is of a Designer of Life, and Death, something held most high.....
I invite everyone to listen to the seminar I have linked, especially you if you are sincere in your search.... Got to listen to all of it, don`t just listen to just parts..... It does not necessarily reflect my view on Faith, because my Faith is mine, and none will ever understand what is in my heart as I can`t their`s.....
Anyway, I just wanted to say goodbye, as I do not know how much longer I will be able to type........
Had not been on this site very long I guess, but enjoyed it immensely, thanks to y`all...... I really do not deserve to ask for a favor, but I am going to ask you all to do me one, just once!!!!!!
BE GOOD TO EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IN YOUR MORTAL EXISTENTS..... I have no doubt that I will see you in the future..... I may not know you, but will see you and we will see the same thing together, BEAUTY!!!!!! Beyond what you could ever dream of..... Cheers, and to all those Hispanics out there, Salute!!!!!
Out of here good people, goin` home!!!!!
My God, I`m sorry!!!!!! ROLL TIDE ROLL!!!!!!!
http://www.creatorsblessing.org/1v/50-Pandit-Come_Search_With_Me/