Mrs. Mittman I can't fathom what you are going through. We loved talking ball with your husband. If I may, here are a few scripture passages that really helped me in times of loss:
Isaiah 41:10 - So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Philipians 4:7 - And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Romans 8:31 - What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?
I pray for peace and comfort in this turbulent time for you.