You got that right. Sticky is putting it mildly. I don't have all the answers. I wish I did. I do my best to study the Bible, its history, the culture at that time, and prepare myself the best I can to be able to give a reason/"defense" as to why I believe the way I believe. But in the end I have to understand that the Bible's primary theme is salvation for eternity and the way to that salvation. Though it does give specifics about certain things and other things it simply does not. It lays down principles as the only way to address many of the things that aren't specifically mentioned.
In my personal opinion I think many people (both Christians and non-Christians who like to use the Bible to debate Christians) use the silence of the Bible on a certain topic as a platform to say that means the Bible condones something. I tell people that when the Bible doesn't specifically address something then you have to move to principles that are commonly taught throughout the Bible to put it up against.
I appreciate you putting up with my questions and debates - I know it can be hard to debate politics or religion and remain calm because it can feel like one is attacking the other's belief (I promise, that is most certainly not my goal)
I used to study the Bible - I know it quite well - but what the Bible taught and what I observed where very much in diametric opposition to each other. From my interpretation of the Bible, the vast majority of Christians are anything but, and to me it felt like the most egregious of evils that some of these horrible people would spend an eternity in Heaven while very good, very honest people who did everything in their power to be wonderful human beings would burn in Hell. I had a hard time equating a "just and loving God" with "eternal damnation for a few scant years on planet Earth". That seemed neither Just nor Loving, in my view, and while I get the whole "who are we to question God" we also have to view the truth "we are created in his image" along with an understanding of "good" and "evil". If we truly believe that we have an understanding of those concepts, and that God created us in His image, then how can something we would consider an evil act if orchestrated by man be considered a just and loving act when orchestrated by God?
I'm not citing passages, I'm stating how my beliefs evolved. Ultimately I had to look into myself and wonder:
A.) Is there a God?
B.) If there is one, could he really be responsible for these things? (I'm not even referring to things that happen on Earth)
I decided that I had to follow my own heart and my own beliefs. It can make family reunions a tad awkward if religion comes up, so I just tend not to chime in.